Cannot Sleep

I don’t sleep a wink, I been up for the whole of the day. There is one thing is bothering. The problem here is I cant seem to see what exactly it is.

As usual , facebook would be perfect boredom killer, but this time that does not seem helping much. Its so irritating. Please I need to get out of it or otherwise it will keep hunting me.

Out of blues, old odd memories flooded back for no reason. The moments back at school re-appeared and so alive maybe it is because I saw some old school photos on friends’ profile. What a day. I try not to lose control of myself. Let bygone be bygone then. Learn to let go of the past so that you could have a future. Although that does not appear to be as simple as it looks, but it would not hurt you if you ever give it a go at that.

Life is not just those 4 letters.

Indeed, when come to think of it, I am the only one who still stuck in own shadow. They get a grip on themselves so well. When I reflected, I felt so ashamed to even admit who I am. i am really nobody, jobless, no career, even worse I am a school drop-out. Do you think life is unfair? Apparently not, but me. I was the one who made this things happened. Should I blame myself? Well, everyone makes mistake. None of us is perfect.

What I really need at the moment is a piece of courage to live on. I need to work this out. But those memories are something that makes me wanna think. Will I ever turn to be someone whom I dream to be? I have such a long to go. Plenty more hurdles need to be overcome. Be strong buddy!!!! I really cant sleep, I had a cup of coffee to calm me down.

One thing I cant live without that is coffee. It soothes me, lovely. It all started in college, I found that this substance in coffee known as caffeine could really favors you to stay up late night. It was something I wanted at the time, I remember, on final exam, I did not sleep at all for 3 days but managed to score tau!!!…hehehehe… I became coffee addict ever since.

Time now is, 4:50 in the morning. Better stay up, its time for sahur shortly. What I have for sahur? A glass of hot milk, then pour some oat in it, wah …really nice…ok guys..selamat bersahur….