3.21 in the Morning

I am writing this exactly at 3.21 in the morning on the first day of month of Syawal.

I accidentally fell asleep after working hard decorating and do the cleaning for the entire home for Raya,

and woke up by a nightmare, out of blues this peculiar thought bothered me again for no reason.

I had a really weird feeling which myself could hardly tell exactly what is it.

Later I realized it was the one that I used to worry about, well I think it inappropriate to mention as its too personal for me.

But it has something to do with some of the previous entries if you ever read it,..hehehehehe..

I woke up in tears and that really gave me the creep though, in that dream,

I was begging for something that has close association with my future, I was crying wanted my application to be accepted, and yelling at those people, which I have no idea who they are to let me study there, if I could recall, here how the conversation went,

“Please sir, its one and only chance left for me, do let me stay studying here, after all its about my future,

I will make full use of this opportunity, I won’t let you down, I will do my level best for you and this university, I studied here before, and I really miss this place badly, plus I had terrific grade for last semester”.

Like that la…huhu

Should I mention here where is the place? No I guess I should not, time will tell…hehehhe..

It was only a few hours I dozed off, how I could have such a night mare, maybe it because I was too exhausted.

Then I immediately got off of my bed, got back to computer which I left on and went online again. The very first stuff I did was, checking status of study application.

Because I received an email couple weeks back that saying my application would not be processed due to incomplete documents.

In order for me to get those papers ready, I have no other option but to go back to my last varsity.

Its hari raya holiday for a week, Malaysian Universities is close in majority, I really hope that I don’t meet the deadline yet.

Now I am wide awake and cant think of anything better to do other than going online again and again, how funny I am.

In fact friends of mine keep on asking,

“ what I do, nothing to do ke, free je selalu”

Ya la always stress out, online would be perfect remedy for me, yeah its true guys….

So a reminder for you and me, this morning after solat hari raya, its time for forgiving one another, but the very first would be your parent, mom and dad, certainly make it a habit as they are more prioritized in islam, they get exclusive privileged la I should say than others,

And a pray for my dad who passed away 11 years ago.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN