Am I Chinese?

How should start this, alright here it is, I kept getting asked, too often,

“are you Chinese?” Well when they got this in return,

“ not really” they as if did not believe it in the first place, and everyone was like ‘jaw-drop’.

That was the most frequent situation I encounter since working there.

Most often than not, especially Chinese, they tend to converse in mandarin as soon as they see me which sometime I felt so bad to interrupt and tell the truth.

In reality, indeed I look like a Chinese with slit eyes, why don't I, because my dad was Chinese anyway.

Its so sad when you have opportunity but you take it for granted. If I ever realised how important mandarin plays its role as it is today, I would have learned it since I was young.

Why? My dad was Chinese, its free, no charge at all plus I don’t have to move from the comfort my couch,right? in fact I can immediately practice it, but its been 11 years he passed on.

I remember, one time my mom and dad had this brief argument on sending me to Chinese school,

she, my mom sternly held onto her standpoint, because back then,

in the event that you failed Bahasa Malaysia you would likely have to be transferred to national school and gotta stay there for a year.

She thought that would be the disadvantages. But what if it is otherwise?...hurm…let bygones by bygones then, whatever it is, they just wanted their son to grow up to be somebody.

Will there be any more chances? I meant to learn it, do you think? If say I am serious,well I have struggle all the way.

To start learning new language is gonna take some doing. Its like when I first started knowing English. Mandarin is widely used nowadays so there is no issue on how and when you can apply it, right.

its my off day, that was another crappy thing…thanks for reading...burst in laugh...