Sakit

Why I am feeling so good today, because first I did not make it to work.

The same skin problem that I suffered before recurred. Its getting worse.

I just returned from clinic without seeing a doctor.

I know what is the most suitable medicine that could relieve it. So that is why I simply bought it without being prescribed.

This problem that I have been suffering since a long time ago does not seem to have an ending.

If only you know how it looks like, i am pretty sure you would not want to see it even a bit.

It’s too disgusting.

But this time, its not as bad as the time back when it was during final exam.

So in order not to let it turns from bad to worse, I spent RM 7.00 which something that I could get it for free from public clinic.

You know its Monday, and that means a brand new day of the week. There will definitely be a long queue and why would I have to get in line for one thing only?

Although its free, but there are more people sicker than I do. Don’t you think so?

I don’t want to waste anyone’s time nor let them waiting longer. After all, mine is not that serious.

Another thing that I have to do now, to figure out what excuse should be given when I turn out tomorrow.

If say I tell the truth will they ever trust me? Erm….now it comes to the most complicated part.

Should it bother me? Whatever….

Penat sangat........

Errmmm…..what is it?

God please save us, we did an error today.

I don’t know how long we can keep it.

Something that should not be undiscovered by her, will do our level best to delete all possible evident.

It’s not that bad anyway, but the only thing is that once she finds out, we will be definitely be doomed.

Alright that is it for that part.

Ooo ya…I missed out on the former prime minister open house on Saturday.

Tun Mahathir, you are the man..

Actually I am not in mood to post anything today.

But the urge is forcing me.

Study matters.

I am still not getting any feedback on my last email. Apparently there are two more documents required.

I hope to get this thing done by this week.

Wait a minutes, I think I have forgotten that a week raya break is not over yet. No wonder right?

oo…ya, this week there is no off day for me neither could take leave. Another fella just applied for 3 days leave.

Indeed its been two weeks in succession I could not take a day off because one person was on leave for a week for raya.

I hope soon she will hire more staff so that this would not happen again.

We are sort of lack of manpower here, and real soon another outlet will be opening.

And I heard some of us will have to be transferred to that new branch.

Waaahhh…..life will be getting more complicated after this.

Ok bedtime…!!!!!!!!!!

Call

Should I mention specific time when I write this entry?

No, I don’t think so.

Here is the thing that had made my day. My friend from UK gave me a buzz when I was at the office just now.

Finally after days, the truth was, I wanted to speak to him on the day he was about to board but he did not call me.

That is just fine with me dude, after all I completely comprehend you were engaging in lots of stuffs.

Biasa la busy mau fly further study..preparation yg banyak….

Today I really stuffed myself. Apparently the two months that I spent at gym were likely down the drain.

So now I got to find alternative ways instead. Its not worthwhile at all. The personal trainers are suck.

I would rather stepping out of my home and do as exactly as that somewhere.

Did you notice that new parks in majority have been equipped with this gym –like equipments?

They are so look-like. The impact is as good as the one at the real gym.

Trust me man, you don’t have to throw a penny.

If I were to resume my membership, I would certainly spot other places.

When come to think of what happened today, I wish someday I would have similar chance to fly off somewhere to live my dream.

Dude you made me think hard, that precious moments have long gone……if I knew it….i would have……….but never mind.

Its destiny, and it changeable.

I ever had it, but I blew it.

Whatever it is, I will force my step forward.

Time wait for no one.

As usual, I just cant hold on no more to be back to the place that I should be.

That was for now, guys thank for reading this idiot babbling from an idiot writer who always wanted to improve his English in writing in particular.

I hope for those who are able to spot any error, do let me know.

I am looking forward to your ideas and suggestions.

New Look

How was the new look? It took about 2 hours to revamp everything.

I picked this one, because I have always wanted whitish background so that the wording will come out.

So what do you make of it? I think this the best one so far.

I am darn tired now and also feel good about this new layout.

Congrats to me!!!

Actually I have plenty of things to share here now but I really cant take it anymore.

Need hours long rest.

If not then I will certainly pass out tomorrow.

Very bad because today I had to work although its my off day.

Will continue tomorrow…..

Life Aku yang Teruk

September 24, 2009

A bunch of things happened today.

First of all, I don’t think its too late to wish a very safe flight for somebody, he is a close friend of mine that I only know for couple of months on the net.

He is leaving for the UK tonight to pursue his study in mechanical engineering and he is gonna be there for a year,

Wanna know how we know each other?

will tell you the whole story shortly. Scroll down!!

But first please, I am begging you that there is nothing more between us than just friend. I need to get this particular part straight. Jangan nak pikir benda2 bodoh paham!!!!

Its not so long ago, back then tagged was a hit among social networks,

just before that, here is one thing you need to know about me, -

I am a social network-colic fella, so feel free to find me on almost all famous social networks you can think of....... pelik skit kan?

I knew this fella from tagged, ye r time tu aku stressed sangat…at that time profile dia full dengan islamic values….so aku start chat dgn die thru tagged tanye byk gak benda pasal islam kat dia….sb mase tu aku mencari diri aku yg ilang….aku byk buat benda bodoh…

And there how the entire story went. End

This is another story, actually it happened the day before when this client lodged his shipment at our centre.

But I am glad that I was not there when it happened though.

This Caucasian fella carried a box contained 3 bottles of wines and wanted to ship it to hong kong.

He stepped in with irritating impression.

There were only two staffs at the time, I feel so sorry with you guys, so that was a lesson for you to learn,

be sure in the future let me step forward to deal with such customer so that you wont get abused in such way.

He blurted out insanely. They never had a chance to even ask and whatnot.

Without giving it a second thought, they accepted the shipment.

It turned out that none of the carriers were able to carry the thing but DHL after advising the price, he refused and asking the cheaper way to send it.

Ok fine, we switched to EMS Poslaju. But then we realized they did not accept that kinda shipment.

Liquid that contains alcohol is strictly prohibited as it may cause fire while on board. I think, if I am not mistaken the same rule applies for normal flight.

But they still proceeded.

The next day a big big big…problem jadi..

What I can say, he is an idiot, an Italian guy who has no manner.

Ok aku penat..smapai sini…nip on dah amik 2 hari bru nak siap….sebab asik letih jer…

You reap what you sow

This is exactly on the second day of syawal, and better known as Hari Raya Aidilfitri, I pick this very

moment to write this post because it’s the time where I find real tranquility.

Let me share what happened and whatnot about the day before RAYA as tomorrow, that is today I will

be getting back to office as usual, I know it pretty hard to imagine how it feels like working on day two of

raya, even myself never had the feel itself, so its sort of my very first experience.

I still haven’t caught the feel of raya yet, on the day 1 itself, I did nothing but slept.

Yeah..i was completely worn out by the things that I did on the night right before raya, its basically a custom where everyone would keep themselves busy.

Kemas rumah is part of it, of course everybody wanted the best, and well so do I.

Although I did so little on my part but that at least a contribution from me or otherwise my brother or sister will call me a jerk.

Yeah….. what a shamed.

Today , day 1

I was just staying at home doing absolutely nothing but online and would be heading to bed whenever I felt tired.

So my raya has always been boring since a few years back after flunking in tremendous attempts to really understand myself.

I made an idiot mistake when I decided to quit study. Now I feel such a jerk when come to think of it, if it was not for that I would have graduated by now.

But again, its something for me to ponder, and that proves the fact that none of us is perfect but our creator.

And I thank god for putting me in it, because it taught me to be stronger, and give up is a word that as if never exist in my vocabulary.

Let bygones be bygones, what all I need to do now is to keep moving forward. Failure is like unused seeds but when you chuck it away, as time goes it will certainly grow to be a tree that someday you could get benefit from.

You reap what you sow.

3.21 in the Morning

I am writing this exactly at 3.21 in the morning on the first day of month of Syawal.

I accidentally fell asleep after working hard decorating and do the cleaning for the entire home for Raya,

and woke up by a nightmare, out of blues this peculiar thought bothered me again for no reason.

I had a really weird feeling which myself could hardly tell exactly what is it.

Later I realized it was the one that I used to worry about, well I think it inappropriate to mention as its too personal for me.

But it has something to do with some of the previous entries if you ever read it,..hehehehehe..

I woke up in tears and that really gave me the creep though, in that dream,

I was begging for something that has close association with my future, I was crying wanted my application to be accepted, and yelling at those people, which I have no idea who they are to let me study there, if I could recall, here how the conversation went,

“Please sir, its one and only chance left for me, do let me stay studying here, after all its about my future,

I will make full use of this opportunity, I won’t let you down, I will do my level best for you and this university, I studied here before, and I really miss this place badly, plus I had terrific grade for last semester”.

Like that la…huhu

Should I mention here where is the place? No I guess I should not, time will tell…hehehhe..

It was only a few hours I dozed off, how I could have such a night mare, maybe it because I was too exhausted.

Then I immediately got off of my bed, got back to computer which I left on and went online again. The very first stuff I did was, checking status of study application.

Because I received an email couple weeks back that saying my application would not be processed due to incomplete documents.

In order for me to get those papers ready, I have no other option but to go back to my last varsity.

Its hari raya holiday for a week, Malaysian Universities is close in majority, I really hope that I don’t meet the deadline yet.

Now I am wide awake and cant think of anything better to do other than going online again and again, how funny I am.

In fact friends of mine keep on asking,

“ what I do, nothing to do ke, free je selalu”

Ya la always stress out, online would be perfect remedy for me, yeah its true guys….

So a reminder for you and me, this morning after solat hari raya, its time for forgiving one another, but the very first would be your parent, mom and dad, certainly make it a habit as they are more prioritized in islam, they get exclusive privileged la I should say than others,

And a pray for my dad who passed away 11 years ago.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

Ramadhan

It’s a start of something new, in couple more hours; we will be leaving the holy month of Ramadan.

But for me, that is just a moment that I hate the most.

Will we ever meet this wonderful month again in our life? Nobody knows…..

Time is running too fast and sometime we did not mange to catch it.

Its something for us to ponder.

Have we made maximum use of this month? I wish it will stay, it seems like yesterday it was here.

In real soon it will take off to nowhere, and be back next year.

Frankly say, it’s a bad Ramadan I ever had though. I do not need to describe any further but that is the thing, just let it between me and HIM.

Please let me have this spectacular month again next year so that I could repay what have done this time.

Its always too late for me, no matter how hard I try, it just gives me nothing.

I wanna be somebody, but I am not strong enough. All attempts that I had ever made seem down the drain.

The truth is, I am a useless.

GOD always keeps me out of the whole things that happened in my life.

Do not let me stray for no reason, light up my life with your guidance.

Orang Gila Memandu

Its been the busiest week ever, so that is good enough to let you know how has my week been so far..ya…

Its hard for me to find even some time lately to write in here, although there are plenty of things have been happening past few days.

I got one here, well I confidently believe this the scarier thing that ever happen to you while crossing road, did you notice something? The closer you approach the zebra crossing, the faster those reckless Malaysian drivers will drive?

Alright let me put it this way, its been more than once actually this situation occurred, and I almost got knocked over one time..oo..man…. unbelievable …!!!! I am not making it up though. I been using the same line to cross, and every time I do that, this incident for sure come about.

But seriously, rules are made to be broke. Even worse those who have baby on pram, sometime it takes hours for them to cross. What a sad!!!!

They, I mean the drivers just sort of turning blind eyes. They totally disrespect the pedestrians.

Malaysian drivers…..!!!..everyone knows….thanks for putting us on world map as country with the most reckless drivers….face it, that is what Malaysia famous for….

Hari Raya

Yay..its time of the year again, hari raya, is just days away, and it seems everyone is darn busy getting ready for that.

I was asked last night by accident – I think so,

“ have you bought your baju raya and stuffs?, “ then I sadly replied, “ not at all”

“why” ….and this is the part that I cant get answer for.

Be it raya or any other days, it makes no different not a bit, even worse this time, I will be working on the second day of raya and onwards.

Poor me, but true yaa….hehehe…

Raya is like nothing to me, it’s the part where I cant really tell what is wrong with it.

Some people might say, I am an idiot, but they cant change me, that is who I am, and I will certainly stay that way…..

Whatever judgments might show up later, I am all set for it.

Ever since that day, I thought my life was nothing……

So its not too soon, to wish you guys…

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

Shorter

The shorter entry ever so far, at this time I really do not have any specific stuffs to express or sort of talking about.

But I just noticed in my previous entries there were quite number of typos and you know, slightly grammatical errors,

Kindly disregard it, everyone makes mistake, cant run away with it right? Oo..

And its too late for sahur…see you in the next entry….bye….

Am I Chinese?

How should start this, alright here it is, I kept getting asked, too often,

“are you Chinese?” Well when they got this in return,

“ not really” they as if did not believe it in the first place, and everyone was like ‘jaw-drop’.

That was the most frequent situation I encounter since working there.

Most often than not, especially Chinese, they tend to converse in mandarin as soon as they see me which sometime I felt so bad to interrupt and tell the truth.

In reality, indeed I look like a Chinese with slit eyes, why don't I, because my dad was Chinese anyway.

Its so sad when you have opportunity but you take it for granted. If I ever realised how important mandarin plays its role as it is today, I would have learned it since I was young.

Why? My dad was Chinese, its free, no charge at all plus I don’t have to move from the comfort my couch,right? in fact I can immediately practice it, but its been 11 years he passed on.

I remember, one time my mom and dad had this brief argument on sending me to Chinese school,

she, my mom sternly held onto her standpoint, because back then,

in the event that you failed Bahasa Malaysia you would likely have to be transferred to national school and gotta stay there for a year.

She thought that would be the disadvantages. But what if it is otherwise?...hurm…let bygones by bygones then, whatever it is, they just wanted their son to grow up to be somebody.

Will there be any more chances? I meant to learn it, do you think? If say I am serious,well I have struggle all the way.

To start learning new language is gonna take some doing. Its like when I first started knowing English. Mandarin is widely used nowadays so there is no issue on how and when you can apply it, right.

its my off day, that was another crappy thing…thanks for reading...burst in laugh...

Saja saje Jer

The beginning of new phase in my life has taken off, day one at work yesterday, and what a surprise everything went so perfectly. There were not much exciting stuffs to share here, but still I wanna write something. I am back on track once again after a month of devastating. As it seems, a month was not a short period and what I gained were more perspectives on life.

So here is the thing that I am looking forward to now is my study. I am gonna make another attempt and it would be the last, insyaALLAH. Supposedly class commences next month but due to some financial matters it leaves me with no other option but to defer it. That won’t refrain me from trying right!

Its exactly 6.00 in the morning, at the crack of dawn, my fingers started typing in these words. Since I really don’t have anything to do, then I thought why don’t write something, and here is that crappy something I suppose…laughing…..

My shift begins at 5 till 10 in the evening on weekdays and from 11.30 am up to closing during weekend. Imagine on weekend you get stuck at office…wow..really it never crosses my mind but that’s not too bad anyway, don’t you think?

Alright, I am going off to bed…