Maybe its just my fate that anything I do will definitely turn out wrong. Well I know this does not sound so right to start something but in reality I am facing this issue at the moment.
Somebody which meant well spewed that I have been stuck in rut after all these. Yeah.. I cant deny it, I noticed that too. Thanks for the reminder anyway, hehehe…
Let me tell you this, what could be the reason that triggered the person to say such thing, basically I let one tiny crushing experience ruined my life and what add insult to injury was, it lead me to even huge failure, the illusion of failure has been hunting me down for long. When it comes to decision making, frankly say, I am so bad at it.
The minute I had to decide, it gives me a creep.
Sometime I managed to tackle it down. Its worse when I failed.
This is one of the reasons as well why every time I tried something it went wrong.
When it comes to this part, I can’t seem to agree more with the person or whoever told me so.
One thing for sure that might happen is, attempts that I made will go straight down the drain.
It seems so pointless of trying but I have no other option but to do it.
If you know, there is only one thing that I really need in life right at this exact second and kinda will make my life happy too, that is one word with four letters, STUDY!!!!
Worry not, I am working on it. If ever there was one word to describe how I am feeling right now, I will say, EXSTACYiahu..…hahahaha, get it straight ok, I don’t do drug.
The moment is here for me to recapture my life, putting stuffs back in order, get back on feet.
In fact I have been looking forward to going back into university, I ever had that chance but I blew it away just like that. So pathetic, isn’t it?
But this time I really hope that it goes smooth as planned.
I have to get everything settled by this week in order for me to meet the dateline. I only have a week left before the application period comes to an end. It was just last week, precisely on Friday I was there.
I have no idea why is it? Suddenly the marketing unit has been re-located at the other campus without prior notice. Troublesome as it looks, yeah indeed. Now I have to put back my ass down and go online for that matter as I didn’t manage to get the application form. This thing has delayed the process.
If it had not been for that, I would not get my ass up then as I spent too much on it itself. I thought at first I was gonna go down there paid for the doc and yeah..bye..bye…but it’s the other way around. In addition I had to pay RM 150 to claim the document, what can you see in my account now is nothing, so sad.
Oooohh..tapi….excited la nak masuk stdy balik….
Ok guys see ya…!!!!!!!!!
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