Bonding

in less than a day I have started developing that feel of awfull lonesomeness that its more like a bird flying helplessly with broken wing, I could sense the incompleteness shines through the wreckage in myself already.

Am I so dependent on someone or to the extent of anything?

in my withered journey for discovery, I stumble upon things that have somehow proven it to be right...but I care less for that.(always! the bad side of me!)

it was only yesterday I saw a super close pal of mine(to describe the elvolved strong bonding over the time between us) off at the airport, left for Amsterdam again this year with me waving in hesitant rythmes of left, right...from distance as he walked down the departure hall.

In times of need he would always be there, a truly through thick and thin friend...that is...I could have made the mistakes or even bigger as I did in the past if it wasnt for him to guide me through.

From nobody he was then, today I'm more than happy that he runs a company of his own before I even know it. It was not that long before things turned around for him but me, wasnt it?

Farewell...moments of true...

I will stay up for the rest of the night again for my thirst for betterment is becoming mundane, taking turn for the worst and less thrill than ever, weakened by the battlement between my inner voice. I find no uplifting reasons to get up early in the morning anymore but instead, let the dawn subside by the morning bright sunshine.

Pasts are the indicator bar, how it works purely up to us to raise it way up to the max or lower it down to the bottom(this is me). It rather seems to me that I'm losing grip on reality where most of the time it almost causes me my dear life.

Did we ever make mistakes and learn a lesson out of it the least? Never if it was for my case.

When I'm down with problems that keep on hitting me, I resort to find way out rather than seek help or tackle it head on.
Running away from it will not put it to an end.

A year older and a penny lesser, this would suit me best...it sums up who I am now...but hope is there still, only of late it has taken a heavy toll and I keep my faith tight as the time goes by there will be light at the end of tunnel.

When opportunity knocks, I slammed the door close...locked myself in...shouldnt we fling it wide open and say 'hey what you got there'.

what future is like for me...?

Every single day I wake up to the thought of 'who am I' in continuous search for the best of me.

A word of advise to my dearest buddy, 'you are not a step away from the dream you always told me, No More... you are living in it by now' play with the snow as you wish..fly on that 13 hours flight...! it could have been me! apparently in almost anything, more often than not your ahead of me...well, it is fine...time will come...someday I'll be there along side....hahaha....

pure friendship? how would you define it....?

since you are away, I hope the best for you in years to come, insyaAllah...Take care...