I am back!

Hi,

How are you there? 

How has your fasting been coming along so far? I hope that all is well.

I know that I did it again.

Be assured that I am still writing, just so happen I've been feeling a tad under the weather.

I feel that I am being left out again.

A close friend of mine, the one that is through thick and thin is now back in Amsterdam.

He flies quite frequently in a year especially given the nature of his work. I have no issue or whatsoever about that.

I have been receiving calls for job interview, but none of them made it to the final.

Anxious as I ever be, life must go on.

Hope and expectation must not die, sooner or later...you'll see light at the end of the tunnel.

Enjoy the dark side of your life while it lasts, when the light comes pouring in, the moment of the first shine through will blind and kill you momentarily. 

And that brief dead where your new journey starts. You are all freshen up! Like a new soul entering the world.

But beware! Opportunity knocks but once. While you are at it, enjoy as much as you can for it lasts not.

Don't take the easy way out. The harder you try...the stronger you become.

As I ever said in the past, procrastination silently kills you from inside out. Wait no more as life is short.

I'll try my best.

I am scared

Fly me to the moon...I have been off-colour of late...I wish I could turn around the clock back to the time when I was young.

Time flies fast, indeed.

Life is not getting any more longer and that's the fact we all live by, but  in my struggles towards achieving the dream I long, come along lives that have taught me the greatest lessons ever. the missing pieces are coming together.

Never an inch would I step back just to see the pasts. Let them be the history that will tell their own stories. What's rather important is the future that holds a lot of surprises.

There is just too much for me to bear, I am living the life I would not want to be in.

The loads on shoulder keep pressing me down.

All I could wish for is that the future would still hold those surprises. I wasted every second in my life thinking dreadful things about what the future might bring along with it.

I fail to see it coming is the worst nightmare ever and what's more is when you are too preoccupied with the present that last not.

Clock is ticking.

Madness

I am neither confused nor mad but rather in shock. After spending so much of my time, going back and forth it looks like that none of these seems to be working out.

One doctor after the other, still I can't make of this. Am I really sick? Why all the drugs have been prescribed leading to nothing but complete dead end.

When things are out of hand, my rants can be way too vicious. Is this really happening right now? None of the doctors I have seen seemingly to be trustworthy.

What all they are doing is try to make things easier, go around through the simplest way.

I know that it is a tough job having to see a bunch of people every single day, not to mention having to stay back at hospitals and up late night but you have made a sacred vow to save people's life. It is your job.

This is not how it supposedly looks, having experienced all this nightmares I can only say that I'd prefer private clinics or hospitals the next time I am sick.