I am scared

Fly me to the moon...I have been off-colour of late...I wish I could turn around the clock back to the time when I was young.

Time flies fast, indeed.

Life is not getting any more longer and that's the fact we all live by, but  in my struggles towards achieving the dream I long, come along lives that have taught me the greatest lessons ever. the missing pieces are coming together.

Never an inch would I step back just to see the pasts. Let them be the history that will tell their own stories. What's rather important is the future that holds a lot of surprises.

There is just too much for me to bear, I am living the life I would not want to be in.

The loads on shoulder keep pressing me down.

All I could wish for is that the future would still hold those surprises. I wasted every second in my life thinking dreadful things about what the future might bring along with it.

I fail to see it coming is the worst nightmare ever and what's more is when you are too preoccupied with the present that last not.

Clock is ticking.

Madness

I am neither confused nor mad but rather in shock. After spending so much of my time, going back and forth it looks like that none of these seems to be working out.

One doctor after the other, still I can't make of this. Am I really sick? Why all the drugs have been prescribed leading to nothing but complete dead end.

When things are out of hand, my rants can be way too vicious. Is this really happening right now? None of the doctors I have seen seemingly to be trustworthy.

What all they are doing is try to make things easier, go around through the simplest way.

I know that it is a tough job having to see a bunch of people every single day, not to mention having to stay back at hospitals and up late night but you have made a sacred vow to save people's life. It is your job.

This is not how it supposedly looks, having experienced all this nightmares I can only say that I'd prefer private clinics or hospitals the next time I am sick.

Don't be a moron!

Nothing is more exciting than finally have that job you always dream of. It has been my long passion to be part of an airline.

One might say that I was so close even the tiny ants could not get through of it but came a test. It changed everything.

I am more than mortified.

Called for an interview to work for some reputable airline in the world, I was nothing short of thrill but then came along a disaster that neither could I blame myself for nor the lord who made it possible.

Just a few days before that, I had some strange skin infection spreading out all over my palm and went up to the wrist.

When I went to see a doctor, he could not even make of it. He prescribed some lotion and a cream that only added salt to the injury.

And there went the story. 

I was called in back for the second interview with that airlines, but sadly especially given the circumstance I had to turn it down.

Although its been confirmed as not being contagious but I rather take no chance.

It feels as if I am falling down into a dark hole. I am stuck in there not knowing where to go. There is no light at the end of the tunnel.

I am completely devastated.

For all of you who are reading this right now, please be extra cautious! If you work in an environment which requires to use your hands, or computer keyboard, again I can't stress it enough that there is no harm of being careful! Nobody knows how many hands have landed on the keyboard and some might be carriers of infectious disease.

Remember!

Pack a wet-wipe up when you go outside! Keep the hands sanitizer handy at all times. Wash your hands as regular as possible particularly after using the loo.

If you are a carrier of some stupid killing disease, please be more accountable! Seek immediate treatment! Don't be such a jackass!

Up till now, I am outrage STILL!