Hi

Left behind is not an option, so instead of being the last to cross the finish line, it would be rather appropriate to pick up the pace and join the crowd.

Well that is the least you could achieve, isn't it if not being a winner.

I am a type that never feels great when being left behind or out of the crowd. At least that is what I used to be.

Apparently now it is a whole lot of different story. A new venture I never attempted in the first place.

I guess this in one way or another contributes to the fact that I am getting lazy day by day.

I couldn't help feeling sorry for myself. Why?

Everyday as I get out of my bed and thought to myself that it was a new chapter; fresh morning in hopes that the plans I had made the night prior would go smoothly.

As it turns out, never so apparently.

Recently diagnosed with decent high blood pressure, it is indeed a wake up call that fails to wake me up at all.

I work hard in putting back myself to the right track, I just want to live the life I used to live in.

To help occupy my time, I resorted to doing stuff that I would later regret for.

Would it be nice if for once I could turn the clock around and sort of go back to the old days.

I missed out on so many great things in my life, and my friends too; how badly I need them now.

Sadly too few that sticks by in time like this.

This is never meant to toot my own horn, evidently I am a friend would always be there in time of another friend needs help or just for an accompany.

Despite all this, we are still friends, I never ask a favor in return, but a short reply of "hi" would be lovely.

Langit (Sky)

 Langit - Yuna

In just a few more days ahead, we will be coming in to a brand new month. Oh boy! I must admit that my tight schedule have had the better of me.

As of right now I am having a good time working from the comfort of my own room.

A friend in which I'd call the one through thick and thin is running a small business and given the nature of his business that requires him to travel, I decided to jump on board! So I am helping him out by co-managing his company while he's away.

It feels good working from home. 

But nonetheless the job hunt is ongoing! Clock is ticking! I am looking forward to settle down in a couple of years if the plan goes accordingly.

An offer came along but the location where the company is based at something needs further consideration.

Although age is just a number but as you grow older, what lies ahead is much more complicated.

I am doing all possible to prepare myself for what the future has in store for me.

There goes a short entry!

I am back!

Hi,

How are you there? 

How has your fasting been coming along so far? I hope that all is well.

I know that I did it again.

Be assured that I am still writing, just so happen I've been feeling a tad under the weather.

I feel that I am being left out again.

A close friend of mine, the one that is through thick and thin is now back in Amsterdam.

He flies quite frequently in a year especially given the nature of his work. I have no issue or whatsoever about that.

I have been receiving calls for job interview, but none of them made it to the final.

Anxious as I ever be, life must go on.

Hope and expectation must not die, sooner or later...you'll see light at the end of the tunnel.

Enjoy the dark side of your life while it lasts, when the light comes pouring in, the moment of the first shine through will blind and kill you momentarily. 

And that brief dead where your new journey starts. You are all freshen up! Like a new soul entering the world.

But beware! Opportunity knocks but once. While you are at it, enjoy as much as you can for it lasts not.

Don't take the easy way out. The harder you try...the stronger you become.

As I ever said in the past, procrastination silently kills you from inside out. Wait no more as life is short.

I'll try my best.

I am scared

Fly me to the moon...I have been off-colour of late...I wish I could turn around the clock back to the time when I was young.

Time flies fast, indeed.

Life is not getting any more longer and that's the fact we all live by, but  in my struggles towards achieving the dream I long, come along lives that have taught me the greatest lessons ever. the missing pieces are coming together.

Never an inch would I step back just to see the pasts. Let them be the history that will tell their own stories. What's rather important is the future that holds a lot of surprises.

There is just too much for me to bear, I am living the life I would not want to be in.

The loads on shoulder keep pressing me down.

All I could wish for is that the future would still hold those surprises. I wasted every second in my life thinking dreadful things about what the future might bring along with it.

I fail to see it coming is the worst nightmare ever and what's more is when you are too preoccupied with the present that last not.

Clock is ticking.

Madness

I am neither confused nor mad but rather in shock. After spending so much of my time, going back and forth it looks like that none of these seems to be working out.

One doctor after the other, still I can't make of this. Am I really sick? Why all the drugs have been prescribed leading to nothing but complete dead end.

When things are out of hand, my rants can be way too vicious. Is this really happening right now? None of the doctors I have seen seemingly to be trustworthy.

What all they are doing is try to make things easier, go around through the simplest way.

I know that it is a tough job having to see a bunch of people every single day, not to mention having to stay back at hospitals and up late night but you have made a sacred vow to save people's life. It is your job.

This is not how it supposedly looks, having experienced all this nightmares I can only say that I'd prefer private clinics or hospitals the next time I am sick.

Don't be a moron!

Nothing is more exciting than finally have that job you always dream of. It has been my long passion to be part of an airline.

One might say that I was so close even the tiny ants could not get through of it but came a test. It changed everything.

I am more than mortified.

Called for an interview to work for some reputable airline in the world, I was nothing short of thrill but then came along a disaster that neither could I blame myself for nor the lord who made it possible.

Just a few days before that, I had some strange skin infection spreading out all over my palm and went up to the wrist.

When I went to see a doctor, he could not even make of it. He prescribed some lotion and a cream that only added salt to the injury.

And there went the story. 

I was called in back for the second interview with that airlines, but sadly especially given the circumstance I had to turn it down.

Although its been confirmed as not being contagious but I rather take no chance.

It feels as if I am falling down into a dark hole. I am stuck in there not knowing where to go. There is no light at the end of the tunnel.

I am completely devastated.

For all of you who are reading this right now, please be extra cautious! If you work in an environment which requires to use your hands, or computer keyboard, again I can't stress it enough that there is no harm of being careful! Nobody knows how many hands have landed on the keyboard and some might be carriers of infectious disease.

Remember!

Pack a wet-wipe up when you go outside! Keep the hands sanitizer handy at all times. Wash your hands as regular as possible particularly after using the loo.

If you are a carrier of some stupid killing disease, please be more accountable! Seek immediate treatment! Don't be such a jackass!

Up till now, I am outrage STILL! 

Going Away

Flying is the only way for me to get off the load of my chest, by that I mean, going away on holiday!

It felt so good after coming back from one! Except for certain cases when the person I traveled with was a complete pin in the ass, mind my language!

The thing I'd enjoy sparing time for, nothing else as far I can remember.

Some even might ask, what does it take to travel? Do we must have a lot of money to do that? What about the time it takes?

The answer to that would be rather short and simple; passion! What would you do for the thing or hobby you are in love so much? Everything!

As a frequent flier, time is of the concern, nothing else is! So it is of important to plan out your weekend getaway way in advance. Be sure to have all it needs prepared.

Three days are minimum for me, but then again it varies depending on the time and budget available. Being an easy traveler myself, I couldn't care less about the place I'll stay in for as long it has got the things a room should, I am all good.

Your short trip doesn't have to complicated, remember ultimately you just want to relax! For a solo traveler, be sure to have a little medical kit packed up in your bag just in case you need it! Who knows!

My Medical Kit

If I were to choose of beach, wild or city, the first two would definitely be the ones.

Where would the next one be? hurmm...

I'm Even Too Tired To Cry

Clearly there is no point of trying so hard if everything eventually goes down the drain. I slept over at a friend's place last night in hope it would do something about my isomnia, or help me get a little bit of rest and sleep the least of course but...insurmountable.

Obviously I look nothing more but a zombie, dark bloated big bags under my eyes sum it all up.

He lives too close to a construction site that the operation running all day long as if they never stop working not a single minute, the machines worked vigorously at full swing only made the matter worst.

I just need to get a deep and obstructed sleep...arghhh...please....!

Perhaps it'd be best if speak again with my physician and see what else she or he has to say, probably would be prescribed with stronger drug. I wish!!!

The more I write, seems like the better things are getting. 

Till then....

Pillow Talk

Lack of sleep could eventually lead to series of health issues and brain cells death being among them as quoting from the recent studies done by a few major international research organisations. 

Looks no further, I myself am having this similar issue, only get a few hours sleep out of ordinary patterns in a day, and one of the major problems I'd always have throughout the day later is mood swinger, I tend to be hostile more easily than ever; even to the slightest problem as "low battery on my phone" could end up being a big problem to me, then my day is ruined.

I have been working out on it since so long as far I can remember, but all the ways that I could possibly think led to the dead end. Nothing seems to be effective.

Then I tried to relax by occasionally taking a weekend getaway whenever is possible, and here is to my amazement that it does seem to work and  obviously costly too! But it is surely not for long till thing gets back to the square one. The unpredictable climate change - the heat - only adds up to the problem.

I even took supplements to ease my isomnia.

After consulting friends and some physicians, they came out with a rather odd but cold be true suggestion that time has come to start a family, or simply put to get married.

A suggestion that has yet to be put to test. My journey is far from the finishing line, still have a lot more to see.

If you have any better way to fight and put this to an end, why not share it with me, I'll feature that in one of my posts later? 

Super Powers

Oh boy...see how fast the time flies...even faster than the speed of light...

Promises are there to be broken as they say...this time round it took rather longer to have a new post updated in here...

There is just so much going on since I left my job, I have been tirelessly looking for the replacement. I have always thought that it is easy but looks like it is far more harder than it should be.

At this time, you realised that anything you planned would not always turn up to be what you imagined.

But there is no time for you to look back and regret, just have to keep moving forward; pretty much as what the Walt of Disney says. Looking how far it has come so far, I have no doubt.

Its all back to square one, I am stuck in a rut again, doing the same all routines and neither do I enjoy nor despise them. I need something more, anything at all.

Recalling some of the post I wrote in the past, clearly I prefer a job that doesn't involve staring at the computer screens all day long.

I am an outside person.

Even having to sweat under the sun or soak trenched in rain I'll do it.

I just need a job right now, and this leads to problems more than ever.

My strength is weakening.

I wasted too much of my time for nothing.

Some says now is the best time to look far beyond everything, to me this could only mean one thing, migration.

Given the circumstances, considering immigration would be a great idea.

Then again only if nothing else works.

We are leaving march in a few more days.

I'd surely come back.

If this is the last journey.....

For an explorer world is a playground for him, hi there...I know it took ages before this entry came up on here as my life is at stake, I have never been feeling well of late.

When you're sick not only the pain will be there to accompany you...but also the fear of death...

As far as I see this is that that is not the solution to all problems, being a muslim and from what I have been taught; it is of paramount important not to give up on everything as much as the saying goes " failure is the real victory ".

Whatever you are planning to do bear in mind that nothing should ever stop you from making it real. No matter how much pain you are in, just go for it.

You only have one life to make that happen, and anything comes after that will not matter anymore.

Even in this condition I still believe that a miracle will come along to lighten the burden and get rid of the anxiety.

I miss all of my old friends....I wish they were here to be with me....

To those I have wronged and each one of you, this could be the last chance for me to seek forgiveness.

Mistakes are part and parcel of one's life and for me perfection is just another human's creation.

Deeds are there to fix the flaws of sins, to make up for what sins aren't able to do. Every inhabited things come in pair as to complement one another even to the extent of a dining table, it won't be called dining table without those chairs around.

The real deal is in here....

Your life here and thereafter begins from this miracle.

I beg for your forgiveness in anything I have done....

Sadness

There's been a huge gap between the last entry and this one, my very sincere apology! I must admit that Its hard to keep your promise but easy to break it.

What I have learnt from this is never to make promises when you are not sure that you can hold on to it.

I thought if I left my job, things would turn around for me, but.....the reality is, it took turn for the worst.

I am battling serious sleeping problem and because of that my life is in the mess, coming apart into pieces.

That's why by travelling I find that those pieces are coming back together; patching up themselves!

Deep down there I feel lonely! I have been working on getting something to fill the lacuna but I haven't found it yet.

With no job the situation is getting bad but I assure myself that sooner or later I will land back on my foot.

This is supposed to be an update for my last trip to Jakarta, I have decided to postpone till the next one.

Thanks guys for your support!

Unclear Road Ahead

Despite the obstacles that come in the way, my faith remains that everything will be back on course sooner or later.

All I need is a tad of time on my own.

Today marks the second week right after I tendered my resignation with the company, and never to the slightest I regret of it.

What lies ahead is still unclear but at this point of time I am willing to take whatever chances there are and sort of go with the flow.

Nobody is pleasant with the decision I took, being called stupid is making myself stronger. Just what I need to go on with my life.

As the saying goes, time flies fast! I am picking up my pace! 

Comes with me now is a great responsibility to look after the family as at the end of this month my big brother is getting married.

Being the second and perhaps the only man in the house the job is being handed over to me to take care of my family.

And of course I am more than thrill knowing that I be travelling with one of my buddies.

Catch with you guys later!

Your brain needs food!

I neither write to impress nor to gain more followers, my blog is the sphere which I can claim all mine.

I did say this before, but I am gonna do it again just so that we are clear!

You see the joy and sober.

This is the pot in which I spit, fart, poop in.

A journal where I chronicle my life so does the journeys I start off.

Where I draw the past and frame it for the future.

The place where my rants go unnoticed.

The stinks might get weird and unbearable at some point, readers discretion required!

Never once it crosses my mind that I blog for money.

I killed some of the ads on my blog and left only a few I thought that could benefits you all my readers.

Do me just a tad of favor, will you please not to spam my chatbox with those business messages ever again! I am not interested....

Thank you!

Pangkor

Another journey ended, so did my journey at the company. I just got back from a not so bad holiday with a nephew of mine for the very first time.

It was great! what's more is that we stayed in a rather exclusive resort in Pangkor,

Can you believe that I have never set my foot on the islands all my life. What an experience I must say! But at the same time I was quite unhappy given the location of the resort which is too close with a small airport on the islands.

We had to bear the noise produced by the aircraft's engines when it takes off and comes in to landing.

But one and all, it is yet another vacation to remember.

The resort was way too private that we could not even do the things that people were looking to do there.

My nephew and I rented a bicycle for RM 10 per hour thought that we could explore the islands all by ourselves but later disappointed to find that we were not allowed to go out of the resort's area.

This is what I call a rip-off!

Too bad! What a joykiller!

If it wasn't for the package I bought from a friend that it'd have not been possible.

She sells it cheap from the actual price!

Overall it was not what it cracked up to be, if you are planning on staying without a package, the resort charges you up to RM 300-400 a night in my opinion is not worth a penny!

The toilet was not properly maintained again, this is my main priority whenever I choose a hotel,

The wall including the bathtub were mouldy! You wouldn't even want to step in!

The first room was pretty dusty! On the second day we had a power problem, the electricity in our room kept on tripping.

We had a technician come down to the floor to check what the problem was, apparently the issue was bigger and going to take time to be fixed and the resort offered to change the room where it is farther than the room we were presently staying.

A perfect gateway for me!

More pictures on my instagram!

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Me and my book! Always!

Untitled

With a clear direction comes the determination, I have fully tendered my resignation with the present company!

I am still in mixed feelings as to whether the decision that I have come to is the right one or perhaps the other way around but most often is not.

Was it done in haste?

Pretty much!

I can't bare another second thinking of that!

What's all in my head is trying anything possible to get out of there sooner!

But so long as I have done it, that be good enough for me!

Everyone at the office be it from my own team leader up to the manager was baffled!

They didn't see the signs coming that I would be leaving in such short notice not to the slightest.

When I was pulled in to a meeting, I decided not to break the truth and in fact I just kept the precious little gem all to myself.

I am sick and tired of getting stuck in the similar situation over again. What's wrong with you people?

Anyway,

It will likely take up a great deal of time till I get back to normal life fully, some adjustment is required here for my body clock to be back to the way it was once.

In the meantime, where shall I go next for my holiday?

I really wanna you guys to check out this amazing journey! I have been following this fella for awhile now!

His journey seems to be endless with spectacular stories in each step of his way.

The video is somehow blocked by BMW and can only be accessed by an invitation link!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QDlzTAJ5mvw

In quest to find the answers to his starving inner voices.

He took a sudden turn that in many ways would not turn up the way he expected.

But he succeeded!

In his first journey crossing Asia from China with his little bicycle was just amazing beyond words in which has been neatly documented on his blog.

He left his career and a normal life behind not to mention his own family and wife to be a nomad, cycling around on his bicycle in search of the signs of THE ALMIGHTY!

He is one of my friends on Facebook!

I am inspired! Truly!

He has been nominated and shortlisted for

BMW Shorties 2013 Top 10 Finalists

CAST YOUR VOTE HERE!

more about him can be found here!
www.malaysiannomad.com

zahariz.wordpress.com

Frustration

I've come to believe that all my past failure and frustration were actually laying the foundation for the understandings that have created the new level of living I now enjoy.
Tony Robbins 

Don't be so uptight about it, calm down! There will be time in life where it pushes you to the edge and have to make choices. I just made another tough decision that I had no upside about it whatsoever.

It might be another mistake again but I should never let it take the better of me.

I have done a lot of thinking about it and made up my mind, so I sent an email informing about my leaving from the company today straight to my team leader.

You've done it before and you can do it now. See the positive possibilities. Redirect the substantial energy of your frustration and turn it into positive, effective, unstoppable determination.
Ralph Marston 

But the funniest part is that I haven't got any replacement job as of now! Admittedly it is kind of in hurry!

The longer I stay the heavier the burden I feel on my head!

At this point of time I can at least breath a little sigh of relief.

Comes this monday, no one at the office will ever see me again! I am pretty sure that is just what they pray for! 

They can't wait to get rid of me at any possible opportunity.

I guess, this is it! Your wish is coming true!

Expectation is the mother of all frustration.
Antonio Banderas 

In the interim, I will relax at home or probably leave for somewhere.

It sorts of bothers me too, given that I have no plan to fall back on but as I mentioned, moving on is something we do all day.

I am sure I'll get another job.

Wish me the best luck!

Quotes

When times are tough and people are frustrated and angry and hurting and uncertain, the politics of constant conflict may be good, but what is good politics does not necessarily work in the real world. What works in the real world is cooperation.
William J. Clinton 

Stay calm and start reading!

Life is Good!

I have seen grows everywhere and things change over the time, just last week another friend of mine left for Geneva to pursue his dream of becoming a life changer. I wish him all the best in anything including his future endeavours.

Geneva

But as for me, at this point still in quest for my own future, trapped in uncertainties.

The more I give it a thought, the more I realise that if I stay the same and afraid of facing the challenges, I won't go anywhere.

I am making sure the direction I am heading to is the right one. I am tired of feeling guilty.

And another would perhaps be leaving too.

Amsterdam

On the same floor as where I work now, we have another process just joined in to serve Japan and that is one more important and big market for my company.

I have nothing at all against it but, if you have been up on that floor, you can tell for sure how limited the space is! It is getting crowded and shrunk to the point that I feel it is never a good idea to have them share the same floor.

The pay is super darn good though! That could be another reason why I don't like seeing them up there.

I have done some thinking, I would probably be taking Japanese classes given that as of now unfortunately they do not have anything for German.

Yes, I do speak German!

Could anybody who speak Japanese tell me a little bit of how hard to learn the language in term of grammatical and pronunciation contexts?

Where would be the best place I can go to to study Japanese here in KL? 

Even if it is to the extent of having to fly off to Japan, I'd definitely do!

Japan

I have No Idea!

I neither blame the present nor my life, but it has reached the point where I feel like I have missed out on so many things.

Life can be unexpected at times or any time at all!? and that sums it up.

To say the truth that no matter what I am never good at making the correct choice or decision in life.

Too often I ended up regretting the choice I made when it was way too late already.

As we speak, I am browsing around the job ads all over the internet to find the new one.

I really think that I can no longer stay here with my present job.

The stress I carry, the situation I am in now is getting out of hand.

This is proven to be true, did you remember in my previous entry that I did mention that I was gonna upload the video of my last trip from Perhentian Islands?

When would that be? Shouldn't it be in this one already?

Consider the time, this shows my true weakness!

My time management is kinda sucks!

End of this month I will flee off to Pangkor!

Stay tuned!

Perhentian Islands

In the news everywhere, just so much for politics and killings, we have come to a point where it is no longer safe to even take a step out of your home.

There is too much goings on, I fee like nothing's thrilling anymore! I find waking up early morning is nothing like many years back when it was much fun then.

For starter,

This is the hotel or resort where we stayed! The surroundings are overall just stunning, a great combinations of sea and nature which I really look forward to. Getting up back to the room every single day was challenging I've to say! It is hilly! We had to climb up a flight of stairs and what would make it worst if it was raining! Pretty slippery!

Now lets take a peek inside!

Caution! Don't be fooled by the pictures! It was by far the horrible experience I encountered for every hotels I ever stayed in.

Check out the next photos below.

I'd definitely check and find out the toilet first thing as I step in, the first photo shows how badly the toilet is maintained! To my greater disappointment, I was appalled to find that there was not hot shower at all in it! Looks like its been removed out of it.

The porter who took us in to our room said that he would ask someone to come and have the dirt cleaned! 

But! Be my guess!

The ac unit was not working properly either, it made some creaking noise and the fan on the ceiling was hopeless!

No electric kettle people! Can you believe it? So you might as well forget about the instant coffee and noodles at night! To get hot water, you must walk out to a so-called mini bar (it does not look one) outside in which they claimed running 24 hours but apparently not!

Here what they have got on the outside, based on the reviews from the website I book the room some says that the resorts has a private beach but where is it? Is that the one in that photo? I could not even walk what's more swim in it...the bottom is stony!

Up to 98 % of the staff are not local, they could neither speak english nor malay well therefore communications are tough!

We arrived at the beginning of monsoon season, it had been wet and rainy in the morning and stopped later in the afternoon, and continued back at night. 

Cold and chill.

I recorded some video, that I save for later, should go in the next entry.