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Left behind is not an option, so instead of being the last to cross the finish line, it would be rather appropriate to pick up the pace and join the crowd.

Well that is the least you could achieve, isn't it if not being a winner.

I am a type that never feels great when being left behind or out of the crowd. At least that is what I used to be.

Apparently now it is a whole lot of different story. A new venture I never attempted in the first place.

I guess this in one way or another contributes to the fact that I am getting lazy day by day.

I couldn't help feeling sorry for myself. Why?

Everyday as I get out of my bed and thought to myself that it was a new chapter; fresh morning in hopes that the plans I had made the night prior would go smoothly.

As it turns out, never so apparently.

Recently diagnosed with decent high blood pressure, it is indeed a wake up call that fails to wake me up at all.

I work hard in putting back myself to the right track, I just want to live the life I used to live in.

To help occupy my time, I resorted to doing stuff that I would later regret for.

Would it be nice if for once I could turn the clock around and sort of go back to the old days.

I missed out on so many great things in my life, and my friends too; how badly I need them now.

Sadly too few that sticks by in time like this.

This is never meant to toot my own horn, evidently I am a friend would always be there in time of another friend needs help or just for an accompany.

Despite all this, we are still friends, I never ask a favor in return, but a short reply of "hi" would be lovely.

All of Me

Langit (Sky)

 Langit - Yuna

In just a few more days ahead, we will be coming in to a brand new month. Oh boy! I must admit that my tight schedule have had the better of me.

As of right now I am having a good time working from the comfort of my own room.

A friend in which I'd call the one through thick and thin is running a small business and given the nature of his business that requires him to travel, I decided to jump on board! So I am helping him out by co-managing his company while he's away.

It feels good working from home. 

But nonetheless the job hunt is ongoing! Clock is ticking! I am looking forward to settle down in a couple of years if the plan goes accordingly.

An offer came along but the location where the company is based at something needs further consideration.

Although age is just a number but as you grow older, what lies ahead is much more complicated.

I am doing all possible to prepare myself for what the future has in store for me.

There goes a short entry!

I am back!

Hi,

How are you there? 

How has your fasting been coming along so far? I hope that all is well.

I know that I did it again.

Be assured that I am still writing, just so happen I've been feeling a tad under the weather.

I feel that I am being left out again.

A close friend of mine, the one that is through thick and thin is now back in Amsterdam.

He flies quite frequently in a year especially given the nature of his work. I have no issue or whatsoever about that.

I have been receiving calls for job interview, but none of them made it to the final.

Anxious as I ever be, life must go on.

Hope and expectation must not die, sooner or later...you'll see light at the end of the tunnel.

Enjoy the dark side of your life while it lasts, when the light comes pouring in, the moment of the first shine through will blind and kill you momentarily. 

And that brief dead where your new journey starts. You are all freshen up! Like a new soul entering the world.

But beware! Opportunity knocks but once. While you are at it, enjoy as much as you can for it lasts not.

Don't take the easy way out. The harder you try...the stronger you become.

As I ever said in the past, procrastination silently kills you from inside out. Wait no more as life is short.

I'll try my best.

Going Away

Flying is the only way for me to get off the load of my chest, by that I mean, going away on holiday!

It felt so good after coming back from one! Except for certain cases when the person I traveled with was a complete pin in the ass, mind my language!

The thing I'd enjoy sparing time for, nothing else as far I can remember.

Some even might ask, what does it take to travel? Do we must have a lot of money to do that? What about the time it takes?

The answer to that would be rather short and simple; passion! What would you do for the thing or hobby you are in love so much? Everything!

As a frequent flier, time is of the concern, nothing else is! So it is of important to plan out your weekend getaway way in advance. Be sure to have all it needs prepared.

Three days are minimum for me, but then again it varies depending on the time and budget available. Being an easy traveler myself, I couldn't care less about the place I'll stay in for as long it has got the things a room should, I am all good.

Your short trip doesn't have to complicated, remember ultimately you just want to relax! For a solo traveler, be sure to have a little medical kit packed up in your bag just in case you need it! Who knows!

My Medical Kit

If I were to choose of beach, wild or city, the first two would definitely be the ones.

Where would the next one be? hurmm...

I'm Even Too Tired To Cry

Clearly there is no point of trying so hard if everything eventually goes down the drain. I slept over at a friend's place last night in hope it would do something about my isomnia, or help me get a little bit of rest and sleep the least of course but...insurmountable.

Obviously I look nothing more but a zombie, dark bloated big bags under my eyes sum it all up.

He lives too close to a construction site that the operation running all day long as if they never stop working not a single minute, the machines worked vigorously at full swing only made the matter worst.

I just need to get a deep and obstructed sleep...arghhh...please....!

Perhaps it'd be best if speak again with my physician and see what else she or he has to say, probably would be prescribed with stronger drug. I wish!!!

The more I write, seems like the better things are getting. 

Till then....

Craziness!

We have a dream -be it as we were child or even right now as an adult- so do I and what's mine is to have the life that I always dream of; even though as it may seem is beyond achievable but nonetheless its worth dreaming after all.

Its come to the detour in which there are only two choices to pass through, its either you make a turn to the right or the left. But one thing is for sure; what lies ahead is delusional.

Right doesn't usually mean positive, sometime what you find along the way on the left could be greater than the former.

I drove all the way and came to the crossroad, where a turn could possibly change the present from either the worst to the better or the other way around.

Its been sleepless nights this past week thinking of how could all this possible be ended. And here is the real deal, after giving a long contemplation and thought, said to myself "I want to migrate"; settle down at a new place.

In my consideration of all, Korea crossed my mind as the best second option right after Japan, having said that, Japan as you might know is really not a cost-friendly city to dwell on.

Cost of living there in Japan will likely drive you up the wall, nothing is cheap or affordable about staying -in this context living- in Japan.

I spent hours all day long went on the internet, tried to gather as much information possible; tabled and compared it with some of other cities that I had in my list, worked out on any way at all reducing the cost but sadly none of them seemed to be on my side.

For starter, I will just be staying for slightly more than a month, basically to fit myself in to the cultural and not to mention the weather as well.

I'll likely rent a cheap dingy apartment- hold a sec, did I just say "dingy"? -sounds like really not a good idea but judging by my last trip to Korea, even it looks like a rundown building, scary on the outside as you step inside, surprisingly everything is in a superb order! The cleanliness is second to none! That's Korea.

Korean in comparison to Japanese are more friendly towards foreigners. Helpful!

I am planning to depart in a week times, only if nothing else works, as the last resort I'd give this a try.

Just wait till a week has gone by, and nothing is updated since then, be my guess! Perhaps I have abandoned this crazy last minute idea.

Super Powers

Oh boy...see how fast the time flies...even faster than the speed of light...

Promises are there to be broken as they say...this time round it took rather longer to have a new post updated in here...

There is just so much going on since I left my job, I have been tirelessly looking for the replacement. I have always thought that it is easy but looks like it is far more harder than it should be.

At this time, you realised that anything you planned would not always turn up to be what you imagined.

But there is no time for you to look back and regret, just have to keep moving forward; pretty much as what the Walt of Disney says. Looking how far it has come so far, I have no doubt.

Its all back to square one, I am stuck in a rut again, doing the same all routines and neither do I enjoy nor despise them. I need something more, anything at all.

Recalling some of the post I wrote in the past, clearly I prefer a job that doesn't involve staring at the computer screens all day long.

I am an outside person.

Even having to sweat under the sun or soak trenched in rain I'll do it.

I just need a job right now, and this leads to problems more than ever.

My strength is weakening.

I wasted too much of my time for nothing.

Some says now is the best time to look far beyond everything, to me this could only mean one thing, migration.

Given the circumstances, considering immigration would be a great idea.

Then again only if nothing else works.

We are leaving march in a few more days.

I'd surely come back.

We are in February already?

It took yet ages for a new entry to appear in this blog, I can see just that, frankly speaking I have not been that busy but rather I don't feel that much of interest in writing anymore as I was once then.

Right now I am up for a new adventure in which once its set off I hope will make huge different to my life.

I am going to start a long planned business I have dreamed of; due to many obstacles which come in the way it leaves me with no other option but to put the plan on hold for too long.

Remember a couple of years ago I wrote about running a cafe that is similar to Starbuck and likes. I had gone halfway then with tremendous works, nights and days till a few issues erupted that forced me to cancel it.

I take that as the boost to keep me going, from then on I tirelessly try not to look back and give up, in fact I feel much more stronger now as I believe that this is what I should really do long time ago.

I am blessed as along the way I met a couple of friends whom I have trust in, I believe coupled with hard works that the project will take off soon as planned and go well.

We are all excited and anxious at the same time, it is a big investment! Business is sort of gambling!

Next week, I am going to be in Singapore for the most anticipated air show of the year "The Singapore Air Show 2014".

Yet another big thing I look forward to, I have always wanted to go there but as you know given the nature of my job and time constraint I have never had chance to make for such a trip.

This time around I will do my level best to make this one count! Or perhaps the memorable one thus far! I be travelling with two companions in which one of them is hailed from the island himself and that would be an advantage for us in many ways, of course!

I am not giving you my words but I will upload as many possible picture of the trip in probably the upcoming entry.

For those who have been checking out this blog, THANK YOU SO MUCH....please come and visit again...

If this is the last journey.....

For an explorer world is a playground for him, hi there...I know it took ages before this entry came up on here as my life is at stake, I have never been feeling well of late.

When you're sick not only the pain will be there to accompany you...but also the fear of death...

As far as I see this is that that is not the solution to all problems, being a muslim and from what I have been taught; it is of paramount important not to give up on everything as much as the saying goes " failure is the real victory ".

Whatever you are planning to do bear in mind that nothing should ever stop you from making it real. No matter how much pain you are in, just go for it.

You only have one life to make that happen, and anything comes after that will not matter anymore.

Even in this condition I still believe that a miracle will come along to lighten the burden and get rid of the anxiety.

I miss all of my old friends....I wish they were here to be with me....

To those I have wronged and each one of you, this could be the last chance for me to seek forgiveness.

Mistakes are part and parcel of one's life and for me perfection is just another human's creation.

Deeds are there to fix the flaws of sins, to make up for what sins aren't able to do. Every inhabited things come in pair as to complement one another even to the extent of a dining table, it won't be called dining table without those chairs around.

The real deal is in here....

Your life here and thereafter begins from this miracle.

I beg for your forgiveness in anything I have done....

Sadness

There's been a huge gap between the last entry and this one, my very sincere apology! I must admit that Its hard to keep your promise but easy to break it.

What I have learnt from this is never to make promises when you are not sure that you can hold on to it.

I thought if I left my job, things would turn around for me, but.....the reality is, it took turn for the worst.

I am battling serious sleeping problem and because of that my life is in the mess, coming apart into pieces.

That's why by travelling I find that those pieces are coming back together; patching up themselves!

Deep down there I feel lonely! I have been working on getting something to fill the lacuna but I haven't found it yet.

With no job the situation is getting bad but I assure myself that sooner or later I will land back on my foot.

This is supposed to be an update for my last trip to Jakarta, I have decided to postpone till the next one.

Thanks guys for your support!

Jakarta

Lack of sleep either the night or day before is one thing I hate dealing with. As when you wake up it pushes you way off the limit into a deep ravine of mood swing.

I am in the middle of recovering from pains of the past; adjusting my body clock and sleep pattern are two important tasks I am up to for now.

Getting rid of the pasts is like releasing a balloon seen as the symbol of pains and tears, by letting go of it, your pains are flying off along.

The truth is, it has not been that easy.

This idea came about out of nowhere but in a week times I be off to Jakarta for a few days mainly to chill.

After Perhentian and Pangkor, I have this one crazy vision with a budget of just 1000 MYR from the leftover of the last trip I will fly to Jakarta with someone.

I know for the fact that now is never the best time to visit Jakarta given from my research that during the month of December till June are the wettest season of the year in Indonesia and KL is no an exception.

Nothing stops me!

Pangkor

Another journey ended, so did my journey at the company. I just got back from a not so bad holiday with a nephew of mine for the very first time.

It was great! what's more is that we stayed in a rather exclusive resort in Pangkor,

Can you believe that I have never set my foot on the islands all my life. What an experience I must say! But at the same time I was quite unhappy given the location of the resort which is too close with a small airport on the islands.

We had to bear the noise produced by the aircraft's engines when it takes off and comes in to landing.

But one and all, it is yet another vacation to remember.

The resort was way too private that we could not even do the things that people were looking to do there.

My nephew and I rented a bicycle for RM 10 per hour thought that we could explore the islands all by ourselves but later disappointed to find that we were not allowed to go out of the resort's area.

This is what I call a rip-off!

Too bad! What a joykiller!

If it wasn't for the package I bought from a friend that it'd have not been possible.

She sells it cheap from the actual price!

Overall it was not what it cracked up to be, if you are planning on staying without a package, the resort charges you up to RM 300-400 a night in my opinion is not worth a penny!

The toilet was not properly maintained again, this is my main priority whenever I choose a hotel,

The wall including the bathtub were mouldy! You wouldn't even want to step in!

The first room was pretty dusty! On the second day we had a power problem, the electricity in our room kept on tripping.

We had a technician come down to the floor to check what the problem was, apparently the issue was bigger and going to take time to be fixed and the resort offered to change the room where it is farther than the room we were presently staying.

A perfect gateway for me!

More pictures on my instagram!

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Me and my book! Always!

Untitled

With a clear direction comes the determination, I have fully tendered my resignation with the present company!

I am still in mixed feelings as to whether the decision that I have come to is the right one or perhaps the other way around but most often is not.

Was it done in haste?

Pretty much!

I can't bare another second thinking of that!

What's all in my head is trying anything possible to get out of there sooner!

But so long as I have done it, that be good enough for me!

Everyone at the office be it from my own team leader up to the manager was baffled!

They didn't see the signs coming that I would be leaving in such short notice not to the slightest.

When I was pulled in to a meeting, I decided not to break the truth and in fact I just kept the precious little gem all to myself.

I am sick and tired of getting stuck in the similar situation over again. What's wrong with you people?

Anyway,

It will likely take up a great deal of time till I get back to normal life fully, some adjustment is required here for my body clock to be back to the way it was once.

In the meantime, where shall I go next for my holiday?

I really wanna you guys to check out this amazing journey! I have been following this fella for awhile now!

His journey seems to be endless with spectacular stories in each step of his way.

The video is somehow blocked by BMW and can only be accessed by an invitation link!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QDlzTAJ5mvw

In quest to find the answers to his starving inner voices.

He took a sudden turn that in many ways would not turn up the way he expected.

But he succeeded!

In his first journey crossing Asia from China with his little bicycle was just amazing beyond words in which has been neatly documented on his blog.

He left his career and a normal life behind not to mention his own family and wife to be a nomad, cycling around on his bicycle in search of the signs of THE ALMIGHTY!

He is one of my friends on Facebook!

I am inspired! Truly!

He has been nominated and shortlisted for

BMW Shorties 2013 Top 10 Finalists

CAST YOUR VOTE HERE!

more about him can be found here!
www.malaysiannomad.com

zahariz.wordpress.com

Frustration

I've come to believe that all my past failure and frustration were actually laying the foundation for the understandings that have created the new level of living I now enjoy.
Tony Robbins 

Don't be so uptight about it, calm down! There will be time in life where it pushes you to the edge and have to make choices. I just made another tough decision that I had no upside about it whatsoever.

It might be another mistake again but I should never let it take the better of me.

I have done a lot of thinking about it and made up my mind, so I sent an email informing about my leaving from the company today straight to my team leader.

You've done it before and you can do it now. See the positive possibilities. Redirect the substantial energy of your frustration and turn it into positive, effective, unstoppable determination.
Ralph Marston 

But the funniest part is that I haven't got any replacement job as of now! Admittedly it is kind of in hurry!

The longer I stay the heavier the burden I feel on my head!

At this point of time I can at least breath a little sigh of relief.

Comes this monday, no one at the office will ever see me again! I am pretty sure that is just what they pray for! 

They can't wait to get rid of me at any possible opportunity.

I guess, this is it! Your wish is coming true!

Expectation is the mother of all frustration.
Antonio Banderas 

In the interim, I will relax at home or probably leave for somewhere.

It sorts of bothers me too, given that I have no plan to fall back on but as I mentioned, moving on is something we do all day.

I am sure I'll get another job.

Wish me the best luck!

Quotes

When times are tough and people are frustrated and angry and hurting and uncertain, the politics of constant conflict may be good, but what is good politics does not necessarily work in the real world. What works in the real world is cooperation.
William J. Clinton 

Stay calm and start reading!

Life is Good!

I have seen grows everywhere and things change over the time, just last week another friend of mine left for Geneva to pursue his dream of becoming a life changer. I wish him all the best in anything including his future endeavours.

Geneva

But as for me, at this point still in quest for my own future, trapped in uncertainties.

The more I give it a thought, the more I realise that if I stay the same and afraid of facing the challenges, I won't go anywhere.

I am making sure the direction I am heading to is the right one. I am tired of feeling guilty.

And another would perhaps be leaving too.

Amsterdam

On the same floor as where I work now, we have another process just joined in to serve Japan and that is one more important and big market for my company.

I have nothing at all against it but, if you have been up on that floor, you can tell for sure how limited the space is! It is getting crowded and shrunk to the point that I feel it is never a good idea to have them share the same floor.

The pay is super darn good though! That could be another reason why I don't like seeing them up there.

I have done some thinking, I would probably be taking Japanese classes given that as of now unfortunately they do not have anything for German.

Yes, I do speak German!

Could anybody who speak Japanese tell me a little bit of how hard to learn the language in term of grammatical and pronunciation contexts?

Where would be the best place I can go to to study Japanese here in KL? 

Even if it is to the extent of having to fly off to Japan, I'd definitely do!

Japan

Perhentian Islands

In the news everywhere, just so much for politics and killings, we have come to a point where it is no longer safe to even take a step out of your home.

There is too much goings on, I fee like nothing's thrilling anymore! I find waking up early morning is nothing like many years back when it was much fun then.

For starter,

This is the hotel or resort where we stayed! The surroundings are overall just stunning, a great combinations of sea and nature which I really look forward to. Getting up back to the room every single day was challenging I've to say! It is hilly! We had to climb up a flight of stairs and what would make it worst if it was raining! Pretty slippery!

Now lets take a peek inside!

Caution! Don't be fooled by the pictures! It was by far the horrible experience I encountered for every hotels I ever stayed in.

Check out the next photos below.

I'd definitely check and find out the toilet first thing as I step in, the first photo shows how badly the toilet is maintained! To my greater disappointment, I was appalled to find that there was not hot shower at all in it! Looks like its been removed out of it.

The porter who took us in to our room said that he would ask someone to come and have the dirt cleaned! 

But! Be my guess!

The ac unit was not working properly either, it made some creaking noise and the fan on the ceiling was hopeless!

No electric kettle people! Can you believe it? So you might as well forget about the instant coffee and noodles at night! To get hot water, you must walk out to a so-called mini bar (it does not look one) outside in which they claimed running 24 hours but apparently not!

Here what they have got on the outside, based on the reviews from the website I book the room some says that the resorts has a private beach but where is it? Is that the one in that photo? I could not even walk what's more swim in it...the bottom is stony!

Up to 98 % of the staff are not local, they could neither speak english nor malay well therefore communications are tough!

We arrived at the beginning of monsoon season, it had been wet and rainy in the morning and stopped later in the afternoon, and continued back at night. 

Cold and chill.

I recorded some video, that I save for later, should go in the next entry.

Wait!

My journey has evidently come to an end, well its nonetheless been a terrific one despite all the obstacles that get in the way!

A short trip that brings along thousands of sweet memories!

stay tuned for a more complete story.

Wait!
So here goes the story...

Could we start off with something else beside the trip?

If you have ever followed me on twitter or done it by accident, you probably notice that (in the most humble way) I have quite a lot following me there.

One of which in honor is this supermom I'd call her.

She blogs pretty much about anything she sees, feels and experiences in her daily life.

But of all, fashion is sort of the central theme for her gorgeous blog.

What intrigues me mostly is the way she puts life into perspective. Quite extraordinary I must say.

I used to be a write addict but then again given the circumstances, I guess time is all it needs!

I write to share, am a bird with broken wings trying hard to get back on his feet.

In that pain, he chirps randomly, cries for help silently.

One mistake is all it takes that could lead to catrastophic regret.

I'll share the sweet and sour moments of my last trip in the next post.

Must Haves for Men

This is must haves for men when travelling :

Most people look forward to taking a vacation from the stressful duties of work. Unfortunately for some individuals, the only memories they return home with is how horrible their travel experience was. 

This year, make sure you have the best vacation ever by packing the following must-have travel accessories. They'll ensure a safer, smoother, more comfortable and enjoyable path to the paradise island of your choice. 

	Top 10 Travel Accessories
	10. Medication  Traveling long distances can surely put a damper on your trip — especially if you're going from New York to Australia. The last thing you need is to be running to the washroom every five minutes during a 20-hour flight. Get it here.
	9. Camera It's a good idea to carry a light and easy-to-store camera. You never know who you might bump into while traveling, or what spectacular scenery might come in your path. Don't be one of the many people who regret having no memories of their vacation. Get it here.
	8. Language Translator With Organizer & Travel Alarm The next time your Parisian waiter says, "C'était mon plaisir de vous servir espèce de sale canard Américain," wait before you smile and thank him. You never know what you're thanking him for. Pull out your English, Spanish, French, German, Italian, and Portuguese translator, and find out what he actually said to you... you may be surprised. Translation: "It was my pleasure waiting on a dirty, rotten American duck." Get it here.
	7. Iomega Digital Audio Player  Traveling can sometimes become a little dull, or even noisy. Why not soothe your ears with some of your favorite music while traveling? But traveling light is important, that's why you should leave your tapes and CDs at home, and consider storing digital audio files on 40MB PocketZip discs instead; 2 discs come included and provide 80MB of storage. Get it here.
	6. Magazines When traveling, taking a few of your favorite magazines along for the ride can be a very good idea. Instead of sitting around fiddling your thumbs trying to figure out why the French waiter called you an American Duck, pull out a magazine and enjoy the articles and interesting pictures. You'll be amazed at how quickly time flies. Order them here.

	Top 10 Travel Accessories
	5. Travel Neck Pillow  If you think you might enjoy a snooze while traveling, bring along aTravel Neck Pillow. It will ensure a more comfortable ride, while sparing your neighbor the scare of finding your head on her lap.
	4. Deluxe Personal Care Kit The Deluxe Personal Care Kit allows you to take along all the essential items to help keep you well-groomed without having to pack your medicine cabinet. The kit includes the Rapid Groomer™ for nose hair; the Five O'Clock Shaver for quick touchups; cuticle scissors; finger and toenail clippers; twin-blade razor with 3 blades; tweezers; file; lint brush; toothbrush; penknife; comb; and more. Get it here.
	3. Luggage Losing your luggage while traveling will lead to big headaches that can ruin your vacation, especially if you're traveling for one week, and it takes three days for the airline to locate and deliver your belongings. I always recommend a carryon bag for all the essentials including underwear, bathing suit, T-shirts, pants, sweaters, and your personal care kit. Get it here.
	2. Undercover Passport/Money Belt  Each year, thousands of tourists have the delightful pleasure of running into a friendly, welcoming mugger. If you want to reduce the chances of having your wallet and cash so kindly taken away by one of these lovely individuals, you will need to be a little more discreet with the Undercover Passport/Money belt. Get it here.
	1. DISCOVER — Wherever You Go! Traveling can lead to a lot of unexpected expenses. You never know when you'll need a little extra purchasing power in order to buy gifts for the family back home, or take advantage of lower prices due partly to a strong exchange rate. Don't take a chance; always travel with a credit card. Get it here.

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Basically all these are just random items a man would carry along with him but its all a different story for me.

The stuff that are needed the most in my case as follows:

1. Enough sleep prior to boarding (I could be cranky all the way if I hadn't have ample sleep the night or day before, it'll spoil your journey I tell you!).

2. Full tummy (I hate in-flight meals, its a big NO way for me, arrive at the airport as early you can and enjoy whatever you like before boarding, get yourself all charged up! and ready to board!).

3.Sufficient and proper clothes, do not overpack your bag with stuff that is not part of your travel, save the space for later when you buy something such as souvenir (you can always wash the used clothes later).

4.Medicines are the most important things I must have especially of that prescribed to you!

5.Reading materials like novels, mags or anything that can occupy yourself while waiting.

6.Camera, ipad or any communication devices.

7.A free mind, leave your work, stress and whatever behind (or it will ruin the entire holiday).

8.Be prepared as early as possible (I had an incident in which I almost missed my 6 hours flight, oh boy! The memory still lingers on).

Different people have different items that they must have while travelling.

I can't wait any longer!